Reprinted From:

by Patricia Diane Cota-Robles

Jim McAndrew, a dear friend of mine, made his transition into the Inner Realms of Light on February 20, 2009. The day after his passing, I
received a beautiful E-mail describing another person's near-death
experience. This information is profound, very inspiring, and
comforting. I would like to share this with you now.

As you read these words, go within to the Divinity of your heart. Ask your I AM Presence to help you follow this near-death experience as though
you were on this sacred journey yourself. This is truly a
mind-expanding and a consciousness-raising opportunity for all of us.

By expanding this sacred knowledge through your Heart Flame, you will anchor this profound Truth into the Earth's Crystal Grid System, and
you will expand it through the mental and emotional strata of the
planet. This wisdom will then be tangibly available to the masses of
Humanity, and it will lift all Life up in energy, vibration, and

In the midst of the chaos and confusion that is surfacing to be healed at this time, this information will be a powerful, healing gift to ALL
Life on this planet.

Near-Death Experience Story of Mellen-Thomas Benedict

Mellen-Thomas Benedict speaks:

In 1982 I died from terminal cancer. The condition I had was inoperable, and any kind of chemotherapy they could give me would just have made me
more of a vegetable. I was given six to eight months to live.

I had been an information freak in the 1970s, and I had become increasingly despondent over the nuclear crisis, the ecology crisis,
and so forth. So, since I did not have a spiritual basis, I began to
believe that nature had made a mistake and that we were probably a
cancerous organism on the planet. I saw no way that we could get out
from all the problems we had created for ourselves and the planet. I
perceived all humans as cancer—and that is what I got.

That is what killed me. Be careful what your world view is. It can feed back on you, especially if it is a negative world view. I had a seriously
negative one. That is what led me into my death. I tried all sorts of
alternative healing methods, but nothing helped.

So I determined that this was really just between me and God. I had never really faced God before or even dealt with God. I was not into any kind
of spirituality at the time, but I began a journey into learning about
spirituality and alternative healing. I set out to do all the reading I
could and bone up on the subject, because I did not want to be
surprised on the other side. So I started reading on various religions
and philosophies. They were all very interesting and gave hope that
there was something on the other side. I ended up in hospice care.

I remember waking up one morning at home about 4:30 AM, and I just knew that this was it.

This was the day I was going to die. So I called a few friends and said goodbye. I woke up my hospice caretaker and told her. I had a private
agreement with her that she would leave my dead body alone for six
hours, since I had read that all kinds of interesting things happen
when you die. I went back to sleep.

The next thing I remember is the beginning of a typical near-death experience. Suddenly I was fully aware—and I was standing up but my
body was in the bed. There was this darkness around me. Being out of my
body was even more vivid than ordinary experience. It was so vivid that
I could see every room in the house. I could see the top of the house,
I could see around the house, I could see under the house.

There was this Light shining. I turned toward the Light. The Light was very similar to what many other people have described in their near-death
experiences. It was so magnificent. It is tangible; you can feel it. It
is alluring; you want to go to it like you would want to go to your
ideal mother's or father's arms.

As I began to move toward the Light, I knew intuitively that if I went to the Light, I would be dead. So as I was moving toward the Light I said,
"Please wait a minute; just hold on a second here. I want to think
about this. I would like to talk to you before I go." To my surprise,
the entire experience halted at that point. You are in control of your
life-after-death experience. You are not on a roller coaster ride.

So my request was honored, and I had some conversations with the Light. The Light kept changing into different figures, like Jesus, Buddha,
Krishna, mandalas, archetypal images and signs. I asked the Light,
"What is going on here? Please, Light, clarify yourself for me. I
really want to know the reality of the situation." I cannot really say
the exact words, because it was sort of telepathy.

The Light responded. The information transferred to me was that during your life-after- death experience your beliefs shape the kind of feedback
you are getting before the Light. If you were a Buddhist or Catholic or
Fundamentalist, you get a feedback loop of your own stuff. You have a
chance to look at it and examine it, but most people do not. As the
Light revealed itself to me, I became aware that what I was really
seeing was our Higher Self matrix.

We all have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part of our being. It revealed itself to me in its truest energy form. The only way I can really
describe it is that the Being of the Higher Self is more like a
conduit. It did not look like that, but it is a direct connection to
the Source that each and every one of us have. We are directly
connected to the Source. So the Light was showing me the Higher Self
matrix. I was not committed to one particular religion. So that is what
was being fed back to me during my life-after-death experience.

As I asked the Light to keep clearing for me, to keep explaining, I understood what the Higher Self matrix is. We have a grid around the
planet where all the Higher Selves are connected.

This is like a great company, a next subtle level of energy around us, the spirit level, you might say. Then, after a couple of minutes, I asked
for more clarification. I really wanted to know what the Universe is
about, and I was ready to go at that time. I said, "I am ready, take

Then the Light turned into the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen: a mandala of human souls on this planet. Now I came to this with my
negative view of what was happening on the planet. So as I asked the
Light to keep clarifying for me, I saw in this magnificent mandala how
beautiful we all are in our essence, our core. We are the most
beautiful creations.

The human soul, the human matrix that we all make together, is absolutely fantastic, elegant, exotic, everything. I just cannot say enough about
how it changed my opinion of human Beings in that instant. I said, "Oh,
God, I did not know how beautiful we are." At any level, high or low,
in whatever shape you are in, you are the most beautiful creation.

The revelations coming from the Light seemed to go on and on. Then I asked the Light, "Does this mean that Mankind will be saved?" Then,
like a trumpet blast with a shower of spiraling lights, the Great Light
spoke, saying, "Remember this and never forget; you save, redeem and
heal yourself. You always have. You always will. You were created with
the power to do so from before the beginning of the world."

In that instant I realized even more. I realized that WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED, and we saved ourselves because we were designed to self- correct
like the rest of God's Universe. This is what the second coming is
about. I thanked the Light of God with all my heart. The best thing I
could come up with was these simple words of total appreciation: "Oh
dear God, dear Universe, dear Great Self, I Love My Life."

The Light seemed to breathe me in even more deeply. It was as if the Light was completely absorbing me. The Love Light is, to this day,
indescribable. I entered into another realm, more profound than the
last and became aware of something more, much more. It was an enormous
stream of Light, vast and full, deep in the Heart of Life. I asked what
this was.

The Light responded, "This is the RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of this manna water to your heart's content." So I did. I took one big drink and then
another. To drink of Life Itself! I was in ecstasy.

Then the Light said, "You have a desire." The Light knew all about me, everything past, present and future. "Yes!" I whispered.

I asked to see the rest of the Universe, beyond our solar system, beyond all human illusion. The Light then told me that I could go with the
Stream. I did, and was carried through the Light at the end of the
tunnel. I felt and heard a series of very soft sonic booms. What a

Suddenly I seemed to be rocketing away from the planet on this stream of Life. I saw the Earth fly away. The solar system, in all its splendor, whizzed
by and disappeared. At faster than light speed, I flew through the
center of the Galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I went. I learned
that this Galaxy, and all of the Universe, is bursting with many
different varieties of LIFE. I saw many worlds. The good news is that
we are not alone in this Universe!

As I rode this stream of consciousness through the center of the Galaxy, the stream was expanding in awesome fractal waves of energy. The super
clusters of Galaxies with all their ancient wisdom flew by. At first I
thought I was going somewhere, actually traveling. But then I realized
that as the stream was expanding, my own consciousness was also
expanding to take in everything in the Universe! All creation passed by
me. It was an unimaginable wonder! I truly was a Wonder Child; a babe
in Wonderland!

At this point, I found myself in a profound stillness, beyond all silence. I could see or perceive FOREVER, beyond Infinity.

I was in the Void.

I was in pre-creation, before the Big Bang. I had crossed over the beginning of time/the First Word/the First Vibration. I was in the Eye
of Creation. I felt as if I was touching the Face of God. It was not a
religious feeling. Simply, I was at one with Absolute Life and

When I say that I could see or perceive forever, I mean that I could experience all of creation generating itself. It was without beginning
and without end. That is a mind expanding thought, isn't it?

Scientists perceive the Big Bang as a single event which created the Universe. I saw during my life-after- death experience that the Big Bang is only
one of an infinite number of Big Bangs creating Universes endlessly and
simultaneously. The only images that even come close in human terms
would be those created by super computers using fractal geometry

The ancients knew of this. They said God had periodically created new Universes by breathing out and recreated other Universes by breathing
in. These epochs were called Yugas. Modern science called this the Big
Bang. I was in absolute, pure consciousness. I could see or perceive
all the Big Bangs or Yugas creating and recreating themselves.
Instantly I entered into them all simultaneously. I saw that each and
every little piece of creation has the power to create. It is very
difficult to try to explain this. I am still speechless about this.

It took me years after I returned from my near-death experience to assimilate any words at all for the Void experience. I can tell you
this now: the Void is less than nothing, yet more than everything that
is! The Void is absolute zero, chaos forming all possibilities. It is
Absolute Consciousness, much more than even Universal Intelligence.

The Void is the vacuum or nothingness between all physical manifestations. It is the SPACE between atoms and their components. Modern science has
begun to study this space between everything. They call it Zero point.
Whenever they try to measure it, their instruments go off the scale, or
to infinity, so to speak. They have no way, as of yet, to measure
infinity accurately. There is more of the zero space in your own body
and the Universe than anything else!

What mystics call the Void is not a void. It is so full of energy, a different kind of energy that has created everything that we are.
Everything since the Big Bang is vibration, from the first Word, which
is the first vibration. The biblical "I AM" really has a question mark
after it. "I AM—What am I?" So creation is God exploring God's Self
through every way imaginable, in an on-going, infinite exploration
through every one of us. I began to see during my near-death experience
that everything that is, is the Self, literally your Self, my Self.
Everything is the great Self. That is why God knows even when a leaf
falls. That is possible because wherever you are is the center of the
Universe. Wherever any atom is, that is the center of the Universe.
There is God in that, and God in the Void.

As I was exploring the Void during my life-after- death experience and all the Yugas or creations, I was completely out of time and space as we
know it. In this expanded state, I discovered that creation is about
Absolute Pure Consciousness, or God, coming into the Experience of Life
as we know it. The Void itself is devoid of experience. It is pre life,
before the first vibration. Godhead is about more than Life and Death.
Therefore there is even more than Life and Death to experience in the

When I realized this, I was finished with the Void and wanted to return to this creation, or Yuga. It just seemed like the natural thing to do.
Then I suddenly came back through the second Light, or the Big Bang,
hearing several more velvet booms. I rode the stream of consciousness
back through all of creation, and what a ride it was! The super
clusters of Galaxies came through me with even more insights. I passed
through the center of our Galaxy, which is a black hole. Black holes
are the great processors or recyclers of the Universe.

Do you know what is on the other side of a black hole? We are; our Galaxy, which has been reprocessed from another Universe. In its total energy
configuration, the Galaxy looked like a fantastic city of lights.. All
energy this side of the Big Bang is Light. Every sub atom, atom, star,
planet, even consciousness itself is made of Light and has a frequency
and/or particle. Light is living stuff. Everything is made of Light,
even stones. So everything is alive. Everything is made from the Light
of God; everything is very intelligent.

As I rode the stream on and on, I could eventually see a huge Light coming. I knew it was the First Light; the Higher Self Light Matrix of
our Solar System. Then the entire Solar System appeared in the Light,
accompanied by one of those velvet booms.

I could see all the energy that this Solar System generates, and it is an incredible Light show! I could hear the Music of the Spheres. Our Solar
System, as do all celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of light,
sound and vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other star
systems can spot Life as we know it in the Universe by the vibratory or
energy matrix imprint. It is child's play. The Earth's wonder child
(Human Beings) make an abundance of sound right now, like children
playing in the backyard of the Universe.

The Light explained to me that there is no death; we are immortal Beings. We have already been alive forever! I realized that we are part of a
natural living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was never told
that I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was only natural,
from what I had seen during my life-after-death experience.

I don't know how long I was with the Light, in human time. But there came a moment when I realized that all my questions had been answered and my
return was near. When I say that all my questions were answered on the
other side, I mean to say just that. All my questions have been
answered. Every human has a different life and set of questions to
explore. Some of our questions are universal, but each of us is
exploring this thing we call Life in our own unique way. So is every
other form of life, from mountains to every leaf on every tree.

That is very important to the rest of us in this Universe. Because it all contributes to the Big Picture, the fullness of Life. We are literally
God exploring God's Self in an infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness
enhances all of Life.

As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was I told, that I would return to the same body. It just did not matter. I
had complete trust in the Light and the Life process. As the stream
merged with the great Light, I asked never to forget the revelations
and the feelings of what I had learned on the other side.

There was a "Yes." It felt like a kiss to my soul.

Then I was taken back through the Light into the vibratory realm again. The whole process reversed, with even more information being given to me. I
came back home, and I was given lessons from my near-death experience
on the mechanics of reincarnation. I was given answers to all those
little questions I had: "How does this work? How does that work?" I
knew that I would be reincarnated.

The Earth is a great processor of energy, and individual consciousness evolves out of that into each one of us. I thought of myself as a human
for the first time, and I was happy to be that. From what I have seen,
I would be happy to be an atom in this Universe. An atom. So to be the
human part of God—this is the most fantastic blessing. It is a blessing
beyond our wildest estimation of what a blessing can be. For each and
every one of us to be the human part of this experience is awesome and
magnificent. Each and every one of us, no matter where we are, screwed
up or not, is a blessing to the planet, right where we are.

I went through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby somewhere. But I was given a lesson on how individual identity and
consciousness evolve. I was so surprised when I opened my eyes. I do
not know why, because I understood it, but it was still such a surprise
to be back in this body, back in my room with someone looking over me,
crying her eyes out. It was my hospice caretaker. She had given up an
hour and a half after finding me dead. My body was stiff and
inflexible. She went into the other room. Then I awakened and saw the
light outside. I tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out of the
bed. She heard a loud "clunk," ran in and found me on the floor.

When I recovered, I was very surprised and yet very awed about what had happened to me during my near-death experience. At first all the memory
of the trip that I have now was not there. I kept slipping out of this
world and kept asking, "Am I alive?" This world seemed more like a
dream than that one. Within three days I was feeling normal again,
clearer, yet different than I had ever felt in my life. My memory of my
near-death experience came back later. I could see nothing wrong with
any human Being I had ever seen. Before that I was really judgmental. I
thought a lot of people were really screwed up. In fact, I thought
that everybody was screwed up but me. But I got clear on all that.

About three months later a friend said I should get tested, so I went and got the scans and so forth. I really felt good, so I was afraid of getting
bad news. I remember the doctor at the clinic looking at the before and
after scans, saying, "Well, there is nothing here now." I said,
"Really, it must be a miracle"' He said "No, these things happen; they
are called spontaneous remissions." He acted very unimpressed. But here
was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if no one else was.

During my near-death experience I had a descent into what you might call Hell, and it was very surprising. I did not see Satan or evil. My descent
into Hell was a descent into each person's customized human misery,
ignorance, and darkness of not knowing. It seemed like a miserable
eternity. But each of the millions of souls around me had a little star
of Light always available. But no one seemed to pay attention to it.
They were so consumed with their own grief, trauma and misery. But,
after what seemed an eternity, I started calling out to that Light,
like a child calling to a parent for help.

Then the Light opened up and formed a tunnel that came right to me and insulated me from all that fear and pain, That is what Hell really is.
So what we are doing is learning to hold hands, to come together. The
doors of Hell are open now. We are going to link up, hold hands and
walk out of Hell together. The Light came to me and turned into a huge
golden Angel. I said, "Are you the Angel of Death?" It expressed to me
that it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a super ancient part of
ourselves. Then I was taken to the Light.

Soon our science will quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be wonderful? We are coming up with devices now that are sensitive to subtle energy or
spirit energy. Physicists use these atomic colliders to smash atoms to
see what they are made of. They have got it down to quarks and charm,
and all that. Well, one day they are going to come down to the little
thing that holds it all together, and they are going to have to call
it...God. We are just beginning to understand that we are creating too,
as we go along. As I saw forever, I came to a realm during my
near-death experience in which there is a point where we pass all
knowledge and begin creating the next fractal, the next level. We have
that power to create as we explore. And that is God expanding itself
through us.

Since my return I have experienced the Light spontaneously, and I have learned how to get to that space almost any time in my meditation. Each
one of you can do this. You do not have to die or have a near-death
experience to do this. It is within your equipment; you are wired for
it already. The body is the most magnificent Light Being there is. The
body is a Universe of incredible Light. Spirit is not pushing us to
dissolve this body. That is not what is happening. Stop trying to
become God; God is becoming you. Here.

I asked God: "What is the best religion on the planet? Which one is right?" And Godhead said, with great love: "I don't care." That was
incredible grace. When Godhead said, "I don't care," I immediately
understood that it is for us to care about. It is important, because we
are the caring Beings. It matters to us and that is where it is
important. What you have is the energy equation in spirituality.
Ultimate Godhead does not care if you are Protestant, Buddhist or
whatever. It is all a blooming facet of the whole. I wish that all
religions would realize it and let each other be. It is not the end of
each religion, but we are talking about the same God. Live and let
live. Each has a different view. And it all adds up to the big picture;
it is all important.

I went over to the other side during my near-death experience with a lot of fears about toxic waste, nuclear missiles, the population explosion,
the rainforest. I came back loving every single problem. I love nuclear
waste. I love the mushroom cloud; this is the holiest mandala that we
have manifested to date, as an archetype. It, more than any religion or
philosophy on Earth, brought us together all of a sudden, to a new
level of consciousness. Knowing that maybe we can blow up the planet
fifty times, or 500 times, we finally realize that maybe we are all
here together, now.

For a period they had to keep setting off more bombs to get it in to us. Then we started saying, "we do not need this any more." Now we are
actually in a safer world than we have ever been in, and it is going to
get safer. So I came back from my near-death experience loving toxic
waste because it brought us together. These things are so big. As Peter
Russell might say, these problems are now "soul size." Do we have soul
size answers" YES!

The clearing of the rain forest will slow down, and in fifty years there will be more trees on the planet than in a long time. If you are into
ecology, go for it; you are that part of the system that is becoming
aware. Go for it with all your might, but do not be depressed. It is
part of a larger thing.

Earth is in the process of domesticating itself. It is never again going to be as wild a place as it once was. There will be great wild places,
reserves where nature thrives. Gardening and reserves will be the thing
in the future. Population increase is getting very close to the optimal
range of energy to cause a shift in consciousness. That shift in
consciousness will change politics, money, energy.

After dying, going through my near-death experience and coming back, I really respect life and death. In our DNA experiments we may have opened the
door to a great secret. Soon we will be able to live as long as we want
to live in this body.

After living 150 years or so, there will be an intuitive soul sense that you will want to change channels. Living forever in one body is not as
creative as reincarnation, as transferring energy in this fantastic
vortex of energy that we are in. We are actually going to see the
wisdom of Life and death, and enjoy it. As it is now, we have already
been alive forever.

This body, that you are in, has been alive forever. It comes from an unending Stream of Life, going back to the Big Bang and beyond.

This body gives life to the next life, in dense and subtle energy.

This body has been alive forever already.

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